I can only imagine what my big boy would look like.  I miss him so much.  Today I had my godson and we bought some party favors and balloons, then went to my sons' gravesite to put the party favors together and left the balloons there. 

So I have been driving around and dropping off the envelopes with cards, candy, and little games to the people who have supported me and never forgot about Gregory.  I'll never forget him and I couldn't be as strong as I am if it wasn't for the support of my friends and family who have been there for me. 

One day I will have another baby.. I want  one so bad.  I just have to be patient though.  When the time is right God will bless me with a new baby that is healthy. 

It is often said that life is a journey and not a destination, but what happens when your journey can be likened to living in a daily war with yourself, family, and the people around you?  Why is it that the people who brought you life try so significantly hard to take it out of you?  What are we on this earth for if not love, support, trial, and error? 

Everyone has a different path and just because it isn't what society deems fruitful doesn't mean that person isn't successful.  Sometimes I sit and wonder these things, but other times I am forced against the wall and want to run away from all this pain.  I want to get out of here!  But where?  Where can I run to?  Maybe another State, but then I would still be forced to deal with this Country and It's false hope and lies.  Maybe another Country, but then I would still be forced to deal with mother nature's blues and tragedies.  

No matter where I go I will still be at war.  At war with myself.  Dealing with the seeds that have been planted in me since birth.  Waiting, just waiting for them to grow into little stumps so that I can either cut them down or wait until they grow.  Sometimes they grow into beautiful trees and other times they are poisenous.  Which ones do I feed, give light, give TLC?  It will always be a constant battle and I am an army of one.  

REC '07

Current mood: worried

I am sitting up here at almost two in the morning after watching this extremely informative documentary that entirely exposed our Government and the actions they are taking in having more control and more power over us.  The documentary starts off by exposing Religion and how it is used to control us as a society to keep us blind from the truth of how close we are to nature.  Then it starts touching on the 9/11 conspiracy theories and backs up even more information.  After that it starts explaining the process of money, income tax, and how the federal resevere works.  Finally it sheds light on how useful the media is in blinding us from the truth and the power we have to stop what is going on right in front of our eyes.  This is a two hour long documntary, but one that will change your life if you watch it.  After watching it, I am outraged, tearful, and I feel obligated to stand up and do something.  The ending quote of this documentary is: "When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace".  Here is the link to the movie: http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

Love and peace.
Rene

 

Check out this video clip.  Humans eat unnecessary amounts of food.  This is from the movie Over The Hedge.  It speaks multitudes. 

Just passing this along..

Complete Idiot's Guide to Eating Raw


Bo Rinaldi and I are from the Blossoming Lotus Restaurants - on Kauai and in Portland, OR. We have been commissioned to write the Complete Idiot's Guide to Eating Raw , for the popular Idiot's Guide Series by Penguin Books.

We were wondering if you would be willing to put the word out to your readers that we are looking for raw foods 'miracle stories' to include in the book. These can be weight loss, overcoming disease, better skin or life altering events.

The testimonial needs to be 100 words or less.

We are also including a raw resource guide for people to submit information about their websites, products or services geared towards the raw community.

We would need the materials by October 1.

Those submitting testimonials will need to sign a release form, which I can email to whoever is interested.

We feel this is a wonderful opportunity to introduce those in the mainstream to the live foods lifestyle.

Please email mark@veganfusion.com or call with any questions. You can check out our first book, Vegan World Fusion Cuisine at www.veganfusion.com

Many thanks and keep up the great work.


Mark Reinfeld
Vegan Fusion
P.O. Box 1119, Kapaa HI 96746
tel: 888-44LOTUS
fax: 808-821-1010
www.veganfusion.com