I promise myself..

This is a nice reminder to myself.. all of the sentiments in that image are those that I strive for on a daily basis, even when not looking at it.  I have to remember how great of a person I am.  I have so much love.. I just have to remember to give it to myself first. 

Just yesterday I was swimming and there was a bee who was drowning. I helped the bee get out.  I was smiling and talking to the bee.  I know that to some it may sound crazy, but for me it was great connecting to this creature with life. This wonderful creature who has a job, just as the rest of us.  It was rubbing it's eyes trying to get the chlorine out and I felt really bad for it, because it couldn't see.  It only wanted to get to the colorful flowers, but it kept running into my tube of sunblock.  Poor thing.. I wanted to help it so bad, but it probably would have been better off drowning, because now it couldn't enjoy it's life..

I think about how often I do this.. to myself, to people, to other living creatures. Sometimes I love other things and people so much that it can be overwhelming for them.  In turn, it hurts me, because I feel the guilt and wrath of the result.  If a person pulls away or if I hinder them from personal growth, by trying to do too much.  When I should really put myself first ALWAYS and then love freely without expectation to ALL living things. 

It's easier said than done, but I'm glad I found this image today, because it reminded me of my self-worth.  It reminded me that I am a really great person and I should never feel bad for who I am.  I remember someone once said, "if your friends talked to you the way you talk to yourself, you would get rid of them."

What can I say... I'm growing.  Growth can be painful, but it all works out for a reason.